thanks for ruined my cake!

negative words are negative.

and   w o r d s   can   k i l l   .

re-use old artwork

i made this artwork long time ago,

then i feel like i want to make it more details,

so i added some illustration in the background.

oldies

just few of my artwork that i forgot to post

i miss my winter wonderland in Deutschland

i miss a very strong-healty-nice-wonderful granny named Frau Winckler in Köln.

She made my winter felt warm.

i wish i can see her again next year.

choke me right in my neck - Drossel mir direkt in meinen Hals

Three things that i hate the most:

1. Being blame for what i did not do

2. People keep telling me that i did not serious doing something that i put all my effort for it

3. Being force doing things that my heart says no to

in this case, number two is really sucks!

it's like being choke straight in my neck - suffocated

tragic old-time mask

i found my old-time artwork for Maros Exhibition in internet.

i miss the time when i can still made an artwork beside all of the hectic college assignment.

middle-east safari

Long time no see, my Dear Blog!

almost one month, me & my parent have a religious-spiritual-(physical)-journey to Middle-East.

i want to stay focus on praying, so i didn't use my BBM access, never open my e-mail or blog, and never sign up to any social media i have (phew.. such a record for me!)

Middle-East is a very-very-very fascinating place!

fortunately, i came there on winter season, so it was not-as-hot-as-hell (not 50 degree C like many people said).

i terribly love their patterns, ornaments, mosques, deserts, square building architecture, arabic fonts, and the most beautiful praying voice and culture.

i've got so many inspiration back there.

And without any distraction (read: internet), i can think about myself, my career, my life in a better way.

i have a decision to make.

it might be crazy, but i feel it just right. (May Allah bless me, aamiin)

hope i'll come back there someday.

for friends

i'm such a lazy persom

i have a super-ultra-boredom

but i'm too lazy to move

so i drew my friend's faces

my boyfriend, crazy as always

craziest man on planet

(Gif Animated)

please survive, Orangutan!

i have just read on my friend's face book wall

that ten Orangutans have been slaughtered by a palm oil company in Indonesia

and i know, with a little "share" of their dirty money

this case will close immediately

like it never happened, like it never existed

and what can Orangutans do to get any justice?

they can not hire a lawyer

they can not even talk

poor little Orangutans

they just want to come back to their own home

they just want to have a simple live back there with their family

no harm, no politics

they just want a peaceful life

will my grand-grand-grand-children have an opportunity to ever see Orangutans again?

please God, if not in this life,

please punish those crazy-money-minded-jerk in Your hell.

aamiien..

BALI 2011

last time i went on vacation to Bali with my boyfriend and his friends.

i will work harder and take more design or illustration jobs to go back there again next year! yeah!

see you soon, Bali!

view from our cheap-promo-plane
yeay!

Padang-Padang Beach

i wish i can do surfing

a small Chapel with view to the see

if you want to have a once-in-a-life-time- beautiful-marriage

just go there

it's like a fairy tale

The-one and only-Rock Bar

a Bar that made of cliff's rock. Open from 4 pm

most people come there just to see the sunset

then go back to the city to have a wild party in the night ha-ha

he definitely deserve to die

In "M"- city, one of the biggest city in East-Indonesia, you will be underdog if you don't have these three essential things:

beauty, wealth, fame.

If you have those, then your life will be easier.

Everybody will lick your ass (until you can use your own as a mirror! seriously)

Teachers will excuse all of your mistakes as long as you gave them present in the end of semester, seniors will afraid of bullying you in the backyard of school because they will loose their source to the donors who will pay for any events they'll make, etc.

In a short way, you'll have a privileges to live as a King or Queen

Back in my junior high school time, I was a nerdie-geek-no one will care of me-type. And my father was just an average Bank employee. And the conclusion is.. my life sucks back there (ha-ha)

I knew a boy named "ASS". He was the son of the famous lawyer. He has money, fame, but sorry to say, he doesn't have the "beauty" things. Neither inner beauty, nor outer beauty.

The other boys wants to play with him just because he bought them things! He loves to be the servant of all the beautiful, famous, and rich girls. He will do anything for them. became their driver, paid for any expenses their asked, ANYTHING!

One day, one of the beauty-wealthy-famous-girl sing a song that mocking his father's name.

He did nothing but smiling!!!

After that, i also sing the same song. I thought it would be allright, because nothing happened to the beauty-wealthy-famous-girl. But i forget one important thing, i'm not that beauty-wealthy-famous-girl.

I was just sing a couple words, and he pushed my shoulder, pulled the collar of my uniform, scold me in my face, and with his bulging eyes full of anger, he gave me this words:

"Don't you dare mocking my father like that!

I don't care if you are a girl, but i will punch you in the face if you do it again!"

WTF ?????

Just a second ago, there's another girl did it and you just smiling???? And later you did that to me in front of the classroom just to prove that you have money and power?

F* YOU!

But that's not the highlight of these story. Now, after a dozen year, maybe you've already forget about it (but i'll never do), you suddenly invite me to be your friend at facebook?

my answer is:

NOT IN A MILLION YEARS, SUCKAAA!!!

increasing my patience skill in a hot fasting day

now i'm fasting

i can't talk about people that i hate

(i'm such a hateful little girl)

uuuuughhh!!!

why i have to accidentally saw "it" on facebook?!?!

(maybe this is my punishment because i'm seeing facebook on my working time)

"it" makes me wanna puke

but puke also "makruh"

but thanks,

i can still draw my bad feeling with happiness, calmness, and positive attitude.

naa-na-na-naa-naaa

quick sketch left handed

i reeeeeeally need to practice again in my drawing

manually or digitally.

i kinda lost it now

*damn

anyway, this is my quick sketch with my left hand

SUPER MESSY

hahaha

it's about a viking prince sit above his lovely lion with it's parasite snail and yellow queer bird.

i miss Deutschland

when i was in Germany,

i really missed Indonesia.

Now, i already in Indonesia,

but i deeply miss Germany.

and these are places i've been there before.

(you can click on it, it's a GIF format)

story teller

oh-la-la

i get bored!

so i do a quick sketch

i have an idea about story teller girl

who tell children story in their dreams before they fall asleep inside their dreams

i always want to be a colorful villain

i always want to have a super power

anything that can destroy something or anything that good in a bad way hahaha

for example i can make fire, so i will burn everyone that make any mistake to me

or i can disappear so that i can rob a bank or sleep in VIP class in every plane to go vacation around the world without paying.

but i think, because of all the reason i gave, that's why God never give me any super power hahaha

unbreakable 17agers

that title sounds cheesy and lame, but please..

back then we were just a high school students.

anyway..

one of my high school friends from Makassar - South Sulawesi asked me to make a design.

an alternate design for our 10 years reunion.

since now i reeeeaaally like to draw line-triangle-square or any cornered background,

i have this made for a quick draw.

doodling

just doodling for work

bitter ballen unreleased cover album

my high school friend just asked me to make a cover album for his band's CD.

because of miss-communication brief, they will not use this artwork.

(i will make another design for them)

so instead of throw it out, i simply upload it here.

enjoy.

another self portrait

i miss sketching

so i (once again) sketch myself (haha)

friday i'm in love

cure me, Baby!

mediocre

a very common typical hits-hottie in jakarta

officially quarter of century

yesterday,

2nd of May 2011

i'm officially 25 years old!!!

i didn't put any information about it on my facebook

so that i can know people who really care of me

instead of depending on facebook reminder

Herby, my boyfriend, is the first person who actually gave me birthday wishes 12 o'clock sharp

then my father-mother

kiki-oshin-chia-dybon-tana-bonzu-puput-dhea-debby-ruby-uma-my boyfriend's family-pakdheko-mas iko-mas ega-nurina-vira-mbakyah-masdi-my mother's friends-thifa-harsa-indri

 (for all of your kindness i reeeeeeaaalllyyy thankful and feel so blessed) 

they remember it!  it feels reeeeaaalyy specials for me
thank youuuuuu sooooo muuuuuch!!!!!!

vacation needed

i can't wait for next two months!

July will be the best Month ever!!!

please God, get me out from this crappy situation,

especially get me far far away from the bastard "ugly-hearted "boss

reeeeeeally need vacation!!!

and take pictures klik-klik-klik

PNS is the only way to reach peacefully life!

actually, i will use it as one of my poster design materials for my office bazaar.

but (as always) the big boss (obviously) doesn't approve it without any reason.

(he just feel don't like it)

so i have to make another design which i have no fuckin* idea until now.

i wonder how peaceful it is to work as a PNS.

indonesian teenage girl

imagine if we're living in 50's or 60's

if we have to wear kebaya to go to the mall, to drink slurpie at 7/11,

to buy Magnum ice cream, or just go to college or work.

imagine how long does it takes to prepare it?

i'm glad i can wear T-Shirt in everyday

and just wear kebaya in my graduation or wedding day

BULAN FILM NASIONAL 2011

this is one of my side job :-P

i made this for my old office, Kineforum - Jakarta Arts Council

they ask me to make all of the publication thingy like poster, flyer, banner, program book, etc

they said this year's theme was Superhero

then i doodle-this-doodle-that as usual and TAAADAAAAAAAA

i've made it!!!

poisoned cupcakes

it's another fun job from my office

they ask me to make girlie things

(and-it's-sooooo-not-me-ha-ha-ha)

but still, i love it

because i can draw it freely

 

half deer half swan princess

like my other doodles

i always love to draw myself hahaha

this time i drew myself hugging small deer with a very cool hat

(i would kill for hat like that!!!)